They say it takes three weeks to form a new habit. According to WordPress, it has been three weeks since I posted on my blog (and that was just a Wordless Wednesday). So, have I officially formed a new habit of not-blogging?
How much have I not-blogged? So much that thinking about my blog is making me feel guilty. So much that when I want to visit other people’s blogs, I do not come to my blog first so that I can jump to them through my blog roll. I have been avoiding my blog, like a friendship I am trying to end. Like an ex-boyfriend who is standing in the corner at a party… I don’t even want to look its way.
Another friend has also been avoiding her blog. Apparently many of her readers care. Apparently many of her readers sent her emails, asked if she was okay, asked if she was coming back. I guess my blog is the proverbial tree in the forest… it fell and no one heard a sound. Did it make a sound?
Furthermore, I don’t even know if I want to come back here. I made some mistakes with my blog and people I know in real life. Recently I gave the address to a few people I probably shouldn’t have. People who have met my kids. People I don’t know well. Also, I wanted to write about some things here that I couldn’t because of other people that I know who read this blog (If you think I am talking about you, you are probably wrong… in the words of Carly Simon “Your So Vain.”)
So, what’s a girl to do?
I have a friend who has a “successful” blog. She blogs fairly infrequently but she is always getting swag, not to mention amazing trips because of her online presence. Last summer, she got to go to Colorado on a yoga and wine drinking retreat. She doesn’t really like/do yoga. Although she does like/do wine. I am jealous. Maybe I need to get one of those kinds of blogs. But I think I would want to start over. I think I would be more concerned about privacy.
Do you read blogs that don’t include photos? I usually don’t. I like photography. But I think if I wanted to have a blog big enough to warrant swag I would be more concerned about privacy.
I joined a FB group for bloggers in my state. Most of the bloggers on there are making money or at least getting lots of freebies because of their blogs. I checked out some of their writing. It sucked. Really. Not only were their blogs boring, they were poorly written. Poorly written and NOT funny, a combination that I find unacceptable.
Also, even though I rarely edit anything I write, blogging still takes time. Time that might be better spend reading or exercising or hanging out with my family.
So, this is an entire post about blogging. I think one of the first posts I ever wrote was similar…. 02025 (hey, look, my dog just added to my blog. I can’t delete that. I think he is trying to send someone a message.)
And, I am pretty sure if I read this post back it will seem like I have been drinking… but I haven’t. And either has my dog.
Again, I am left with the question… what’s a girl to do?
Do I have anything worth saying? How much will I miss this community that I imagine exists here? Where can I publish my bad Haiku?
If I do decide to shut this down, I have an idea for what I think could be a commercially successful blog. It came to me yesterday at the gym… Sweat Stain Rorschach Test. I can think of a million businesses who might want to sponsor that bad boy. So, if you don’t see me around here for awhile, you’ll know where to find me. You can probably google it. On the other hand, you might not want to. I thought about googling it just to see if it already exists. But I was afraid. Anyone brave enough to google that, go for it, and get back to me.