First – I hate the expression, “life-long learner.” I think it means a person with no friends who tries gardening, then knitting, then macro-biotics, then tai-chi, then learning french, then takes a trip to Russia…. Okay, there is nothing wrong with any of those things. In fact I would like to do most of them. But I don’t want to learn to do them, I just want to be good. Right from the start. Excellent. A prodigy. A prodigy at every frickin’ thing I try.
Because the truth is, I am learning new things daily. And if I had to grade myself on my work, well I used to think I was failing. But now I realize, I am getting a “D”. A “D” in mothering and house-wifeing. But don’t worry. This course is Pass or Fail. And I am determined to evaluate myself as Passing if at the end of each and every day both my kids are alive and the house hasn’t burned down. I know you are not usually allowed to take your core courses Pass/Fail. But I don’t care. It is my life, I am making up the rules of the analogies and can mix any metaphors I want.
In the meantime, I tried to do something foolish. I got it in my head that I could do some additional course-work, a little extra-credit if you will.
I thought I would make a video. A montage of the photos from our amazing Ethiopian Adoption Travel Group reunion. This is something most middle-schoolers can do. This is something I might be able to do. Honestly, I can’t tell if I am failing miserably, or if the problems are actually a result of my computer which SAG has spent hours and hours and hours rebuilding. And which sounds like a cross between a dental drill and a dump truck when it is running.
Regardless, having this additional work, well, lets say I am focusing on my elective course instead of my core course. The core course being raising my children without screaming and without having to have my husband come home early even though I had a babysitter for four hours this morning.
Yep, the elective has distracted me from what is really important. But I woke up this morning and my kids are still
whining, breaking things, alive and my house is still dirty, unorganized, standing. And my husband he is still unhappy, taking care of the kids, living here. So yesterday I Passed.
And since there may NEVER be a damn video, I am going to put a few pics on here. Just so you know that the video – it really could be worth it.